Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Conquering Fear

Yesterday was the day.

I had been dreading/anticipating this day since the injury occurred.

I knew the day would come. I knew I would have to be strong. I knew I would have to block out the past and focus completely on the present.

Yesterday I landed my first Arabian double pike on the real floor and it felt amazing.

This was a tremendous victory. Maybe more than anyone will ever know.

The last time I did this skill on the real floor was August 27th. It was the day I broke both of my legs and it was on a move very similar to this, hence the anxiety!

Overcoming the fear and facing the challenge made me feel like a hero. It really did.

I was so nervous before doing this skill. I didn't want to let the flashback of Germany and the loud thud of impact creep into my mind, but for a moment they did.

But this day was different. This day I felt like I was more powerful than that memory. I felt like I would be safe. I felt like it was time to pound that fear into the ground...literally. Die Fear, Die!

Now, over the course of the next two months, I am going to have to remove the mats and land this skill solidly on just the floor. But, after jumping over this initial hurdle, I think I'm going to be alright. Small victories have been the key to my progress and I'm gonna keep trying to have them every single day.

You've gotta love a breakthrough!



Anonymous said...

Way-to-go Kyle!! That's great...keep up the awesome work! :D

Anonymous said...

Congratulations Kyle!
My hats off to you, your one of the most motivated, advertsity conquering athletes out there today,and are continually a great role model for all of us.

keep up the good work.


Rick said...


... I am down at first Olympic trials for the USA. Lotta drama.

I'd say Paul, Morgan and Kevin Tan are the 3 most guaranteed a spot.